Our banquet table

I think the theme of life lately is refocus and intentionality  Ben and I have been challenged the last 6 months to take a long hard look at the things we do as a family and who we invest in.  It's been awesome to be purposeful in the decisions ahead.  We want to do the things in life that will glorify the Lord we serve, even though we know it might be very hard but we will never regret them.  In September I read in Luke 14 about Jesus dining in the home of one of the leading pharisees, he told the host when you put on a luncheon or a banquet don't invite who is comfortable or will give you love back, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, and the blind.  I have heard this story a million times but this time it hit me differently.  "Do I do this in my life?"  I felt a little broken over it, was I suppose to throw a party for those in my community who fit this description?  Lord what does this mean in my life?  As time has gone on he has developed this more clearly, for us I think this means adoption!  We are excited to now to be officially starting the process and I look forward to the day I can invite a child to our banquet table as a permanent guest.  My heart is bubbling over and ready to explode at the thought:)

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This blog thing

Well I have done it again I have managed to stay away from blogging.  When I started this I did it so that my family could recall and recount the things our family did together or to see the small moments that touched their mother's heart.  When I am consistently writing  I constantly struggle with people looking into our life without having the full picture.  If I think about most of my posts they are the highlights of life not the down and dirty moments with my kids.  Anytime I ever post anything I write it through the lens of my children and try to think if they read this as adults will they see the love we had for them or will they see frustration and anger?  I want to reassure you that you are welcome to read about our life and take a peek into our family, but please don't think for a moment that Ben and I have it all together as parents.  We recognize that the journey the Lord put us on is a messy one, in the end I hope it brings glory to Him!